The 21st of August !!!

few days merit a special mention...4 reasons gud or bad..nd 2day is one such day
so wat r my feelings...
m i happy....umm...kinda
m i sad...not really..
m i hurt...u bet i m......
but than as i c it or rather pondering a few hrs has given me a kinda of undersanding which i myself m surprised tat i m capable off.....(its funny how time chnges ur perpective)
4 relatively a large part of these days were spent in xtremes of brooding, wishful thinking, hurt, happines n insanity 2 say the least nd than 2day wen i knw i hve lost y do i feel so relived so wunderful so nice abt myself??????
its kinda i was waitng 4 this end 4 it signals another phase ..may its juz a battle..nd the war lies ahead...but this war has ended..a new 1 will begin...but chnge is sure..i hve lost 4 sure ..
nd yet there is this feeling tat i hve gifted my enemy a wunderful gift 2 cherish..a gift which will allow my opponent 2 grow nd prosper...sm where within me..i bilv i hve gifted a part of me in a way it cant b destroyed.......wat beeter way 2 win over ur enemy than by making him ur own???.... mayb its not meant 4 the enemey's use.....mayb it will pass it on 2 sme1 else who is more matured 2 acept n appreciate the gift..but a gift nevertheless it is...nd boy mind u i have paid a heavy price 4 the gift........... :'(
i hve paid wid my own soul...Ahem!!!

Time....

its been sm tm since i blogged partly bcos the damn govt had instructed the isp's 2 block the site.
nywyas the mood is different ...i aint the same who blogged the same a few mths ago...so wat's new in the beta version??
hmm ...where 2 begin frm n where 2 end....fundamentaly the heart strings hve strted playing a tune which is cutting into my own heart,...ohk letz cut the crap..so wats next?/
life's hectic life's fun life cool n life sad lifes happy life is beautiful
i hate my life only 2 b able 2 luv it
there r few things which i seek 2 put in2 beeter prespective...a chngd look ...sm time..n lotsa luv caring understanding nd patience..i m happy n glad...hey its already 19th 2day/cool na ...juz a weeek for me 2 b 18 ..cool n than i will b able 2 review my life..whew!!!!
okie lets get bac 2 sme serious stuff............
i hate itrriatating ppl
i hate india govt 4 blocking my blog site
i luv my clg
i luv my frends
i luv blogging
i luv sleeping
i luv hanging abt wid frends
i luv being myself
i luv my school freinds
sm of my clg aquitances to say the least r pests
life's happening
life's losing it meaning only 2 mean smthing new
i hve lrnd 2 cry 2 knw y i shud b happy
i hve commited mistakes 2 knw tat i need2 do things the right way
the hardest thing in life is 2 c the one u luv luv sme1 else......
hurt is wat makes ur heart alive...
she came she saw nd she left me bleeding...
i m lucky....
i m Siddharth Parekh!!!!