life they say is wierd. i did prefer 2 use the word that life is repeat, boring, dull, cynic n maybe it mocks u . u wonder y u? no i wont say y me - - - but the temptation is too much 2 resit.
well such is life and @ such moments u tend 2 cling more so in particular than in parts to what is urs only urs by right! 4 the simple reason that it pains 2 see someone leave u.
am i hurt?. a no would be a lie.
i duuno y i m hurt! i knew this was comming. if it wouldnt have come from some1 else i myself wud have initiated it than y does it hurt so much y does it pain beyond understanding.
plain bcos wen it started it was supoosed 2 be well it didnt start there was no starting and that is precisely y its hurting as its gotta ending. funny the answers i seek the most lie within me.
no shit! still is it that elusive? is it tat precious or was it just a dream ?
well dreams dont materialise. some1 may hit back how does it matter 2 u ? ur dreams r in pencil anyways? ya true but i will erase them wid my tears n my time or rather wid time if tat means sth 2 some1 .
and than i see myself so lucky . yes lucky! y 1 may ask? well bcos although i have still not got in touch but i say i have a such strong support system, which my indiffernce may suggest, i have taken 4 granted but here's where matters stand undisclosed, unrefuted, unabjudicated unjudged, unbiased and un-wahtever. have i become so maddened by my own pain or say loss that i do not see things as they r on the other side ?
i m bleesed but m not sure if others are?i ask r 'You'?
i do not do charity but 2day even as my loss seems unnbeareable i manage 2 spare a thought abt it maybe bcos i truly care. abt that someone's condition. i duuno if such friends n support systems exist everywhere and if i didnt pull off the inevitable it was bcos somewhere within me i was aware of some1 else loss n or maye pain rather heplessness selfguilt n disamy the way i felt-- i believe it should hurt n y wont it? was it not true?
i doono wat my role is or rather i know wat i want to do but doono if tats acceptable 2 u yes i m asking 'You' above all 2 life.
as a cynic who returns 2 where he came from all i have gotta 2 say is
"love-life or rather love and life!"
PS: A WISE (WO)MAN IS ONE WHO HAS THE INNER COURAGE TO RECOGNISE AND APPROACH ONE'S TRUE FRIEND IN TIMES OF NEED FOR THE TRUE FRIEND WILL ALWAYS WAIT!
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
life - -a full circle!
i m as much surprised as confounded n confused at the human race n its ability 2 think in more plainer words its prowess 2 drag itself into a shit by ones very own deed or rather thoughts n its diffficult 2 admit but i m no xception
wats hilarious is tat we see ourselves 2 death, shame n such torture in the name of i donno wat when precisely the same happens wid the rest of the guys
as much as i hate 2 say ths at the end of the day hardly anyone of us is unique in a particular sense of the term!
anyways this isnt my topic or rather this isnt wat i wanted 2 say
this incident occured preety recently i dont rem the date a month or so ago as is the case i decide 2 use the bus instead of the better trains 4 the so called convenience
i was lucky 2 get a window seat on the 2nd last seat. behind sat this friendly couple. my emphasis on the words friendly couple bcos 1.they were a couple in the sense they were two n friendly bcos as i later discovered they were plain friends n had their respective affairs wid different ppl
by the way i rem the date it was 14th feb valentines day heheheheh
n i have already proved my inclination 2wards such quirk of fate their convo told me they were from wellingkar which kinda made my head's turn literaaly
they seemed d2 have a convo of the outlook of indian society n how still boys were expexcted 2 take care of their parents but it was not the case wid the girl child
as the cancvo wore on they were discusssing of their respective love lives n tat how commitment is always an isssue 4 the girl but guys dont like it
than it turned 2 more specific descriptions of how they were goona celebrate the day n the tp they both had wid thier respective fiancees also how both of them used 2 get around their parents 2 meet their fiancees
excuses by the girl like i m going 2 my friends house n the anxiety of being caught as the friend was out of town or something
whle the guy admiited 2 have supposedly hospitaliesed his friend 'n' number of times 4 a night out wid his gf
how heady moms get after seeing all this stupid saas bahu serials the commitment phobia n all such clash of generations ka topics
relating it on a personal level is not that difficult if not specific in nature
wat showed up n in a way i apppreciate was tat irrespective of their trying 2 get around their parents n tat was bcos they love n respect them they agree 2 n accept indian culture no matter what but they have no hassles in admitting that their 1 foot is alrady in the west
welll it certainly was eyeopener n entertaining 2 say the least!!
wats hilarious is tat we see ourselves 2 death, shame n such torture in the name of i donno wat when precisely the same happens wid the rest of the guys
as much as i hate 2 say ths at the end of the day hardly anyone of us is unique in a particular sense of the term!
anyways this isnt my topic or rather this isnt wat i wanted 2 say
this incident occured preety recently i dont rem the date a month or so ago as is the case i decide 2 use the bus instead of the better trains 4 the so called convenience
i was lucky 2 get a window seat on the 2nd last seat. behind sat this friendly couple. my emphasis on the words friendly couple bcos 1.they were a couple in the sense they were two n friendly bcos as i later discovered they were plain friends n had their respective affairs wid different ppl
by the way i rem the date it was 14th feb valentines day heheheheh
n i have already proved my inclination 2wards such quirk of fate their convo told me they were from wellingkar which kinda made my head's turn literaaly
they seemed d2 have a convo of the outlook of indian society n how still boys were expexcted 2 take care of their parents but it was not the case wid the girl child
as the cancvo wore on they were discusssing of their respective love lives n tat how commitment is always an isssue 4 the girl but guys dont like it
than it turned 2 more specific descriptions of how they were goona celebrate the day n the tp they both had wid thier respective fiancees also how both of them used 2 get around their parents 2 meet their fiancees
excuses by the girl like i m going 2 my friends house n the anxiety of being caught as the friend was out of town or something
whle the guy admiited 2 have supposedly hospitaliesed his friend 'n' number of times 4 a night out wid his gf
how heady moms get after seeing all this stupid saas bahu serials the commitment phobia n all such clash of generations ka topics
relating it on a personal level is not that difficult if not specific in nature
wat showed up n in a way i apppreciate was tat irrespective of their trying 2 get around their parents n tat was bcos they love n respect them they agree 2 n accept indian culture no matter what but they have no hassles in admitting that their 1 foot is alrady in the west
welll it certainly was eyeopener n entertaining 2 say the least!!
Saturday, March 04, 2006
a matter of belief . . . . . . . . . . . .
being a teenager is not always easy atleast 4 those select few ppl who tend 2 be guided by their emations if not in day 2 day matters but atleast where it matters
n 4 some funny reason i have a come a long way from tat dead pratical outloook 2 the very downright stupid n emotional frame of mind n now 4 some another inconcieveable reason i m going back 2 or atleast trying 2 appear 2 go back 2 one those lost ways of life
u tend 2 wonder if wat u did is the best in the situation trying 2 live upto the opportunities of live r u able 2 exrtracrt the juice of life or is it tat u r unawre blissfullfy of something
ofcourse it s always the factor if one may say not comparision than atleast 4 some hell of a reason looking at others or rather interpretations of lifestyles --trust me n interpretation is soooo wrong-- has bcome a yard stick if not the sole factor governing the authenticity or the maximity of ur life
i finished my 12th boards 2day or say atleast 5 of them i wasnt happy wid the way they went n my forthcoming mks will be a testiomonuy 2 that
but 2 reasons glaringly stand out 1 is they didnt go well bcos i EXPEXTED them 2 go well
it is always when u expect when life dissapoints u
so i prefer 2 sketch my dreams in pencil rather than in ink!
n secondly although ofcourse each person has his own standards 2 comply wid i fell it not only madness stupidity n paronia but downright degradation of the human life that our perfomance is adjudged soley as a yard stick of how others manage 2 do i mean ur supposed 2 do whatever u do "well" but should ur putting in ur mind heart n soul 2 something be compared as just another of those stats - -- i wonder??
n 4 some funny reason i have a come a long way from tat dead pratical outloook 2 the very downright stupid n emotional frame of mind n now 4 some another inconcieveable reason i m going back 2 or atleast trying 2 appear 2 go back 2 one those lost ways of life
u tend 2 wonder if wat u did is the best in the situation trying 2 live upto the opportunities of live r u able 2 exrtracrt the juice of life or is it tat u r unawre blissfullfy of something
ofcourse it s always the factor if one may say not comparision than atleast 4 some hell of a reason looking at others or rather interpretations of lifestyles --trust me n interpretation is soooo wrong-- has bcome a yard stick if not the sole factor governing the authenticity or the maximity of ur life
i finished my 12th boards 2day or say atleast 5 of them i wasnt happy wid the way they went n my forthcoming mks will be a testiomonuy 2 that
but 2 reasons glaringly stand out 1 is they didnt go well bcos i EXPEXTED them 2 go well
it is always when u expect when life dissapoints u
so i prefer 2 sketch my dreams in pencil rather than in ink!
n secondly although ofcourse each person has his own standards 2 comply wid i fell it not only madness stupidity n paronia but downright degradation of the human life that our perfomance is adjudged soley as a yard stick of how others manage 2 do i mean ur supposed 2 do whatever u do "well" but should ur putting in ur mind heart n soul 2 something be compared as just another of those stats - -- i wonder??
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
matters of the heart (oopsey mind , i forget the heart cant feel!!)
its so funny n still wierd so-so close yet so far !!!!!!!!
sometimes i hate myself 4 it
can u belivee got 2 fuckin exAms left n m blooging shit
but yeah such is life right it sucks n i dont know where 2 turn my heart 2
some time u wonder y do u run from thing like a coward when u know damn it thats gonna happenn u waana live life u got have the balls 2 risk it
i have never admitted i m one of the most cowardly persons on this planet or atleast 4 2night m
the vey guy who give the msg 2 his supposedly :: y now i m being harsh aabt facing life wid a step forward n such stupidity but u love 2 wrap it in the cloak of uniquiness
n i know nobody can challenge tat as if some body realay cared
shit fuck this day eco went normal but not gr8 as i would have loved 2 i wonder whow my friends ka have gone
i did prefer 2 wait than calll up
4 some reason i m checking up my ::welll lets be not that explixcit
any ways will have 2 do maths no matter wat
i always realised or rather the ingenuity of the statemenyt is so obvious i marvel at it 4 hours nn cry out in laughter its not mine picked it up from :: '3 muskeeters' byy... cant damn remember the french author. . . . .
it goes "" IN LOVE EVERYONE IS FOR ONESELF ""
the statements appeal is enhanced by the situation where this statement is made
n i say well there is always a season 4 change today i do tom someone else will
waqt batayega kiss raha par hamme aap payege!!
“We reap what we sow. We are the makers of our own fate.
The wind is blowing; those vessels whose sails are unfurled
catch it, and go forward on their way, but those which have
their sails furled do not catch the wind. Is that the fault of
the wind?....... We make our own destiny.”
Swami Vivekananda
sometimes i hate myself 4 it
can u belivee got 2 fuckin exAms left n m blooging shit
but yeah such is life right it sucks n i dont know where 2 turn my heart 2
some time u wonder y do u run from thing like a coward when u know damn it thats gonna happenn u waana live life u got have the balls 2 risk it
i have never admitted i m one of the most cowardly persons on this planet or atleast 4 2night m
the vey guy who give the msg 2 his supposedly :: y now i m being harsh aabt facing life wid a step forward n such stupidity but u love 2 wrap it in the cloak of uniquiness
n i know nobody can challenge tat as if some body realay cared
shit fuck this day eco went normal but not gr8 as i would have loved 2 i wonder whow my friends ka have gone
i did prefer 2 wait than calll up
4 some reason i m checking up my ::welll lets be not that explixcit
any ways will have 2 do maths no matter wat
i always realised or rather the ingenuity of the statemenyt is so obvious i marvel at it 4 hours nn cry out in laughter its not mine picked it up from :: '3 muskeeters' byy... cant damn remember the french author. . . . .
it goes "" IN LOVE EVERYONE IS FOR ONESELF ""
the statements appeal is enhanced by the situation where this statement is made
n i say well there is always a season 4 change today i do tom someone else will
waqt batayega kiss raha par hamme aap payege!!
“We reap what we sow. We are the makers of our own fate.
The wind is blowing; those vessels whose sails are unfurled
catch it, and go forward on their way, but those which have
their sails furled do not catch the wind. Is that the fault of
the wind?....... We make our own destiny.”
Swami Vivekananda
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
