events.........

so wats different since the 21st of August....well i turned 18...whoa!!!>.....shame on me...still aint learnt driving yet and look at andy she is already zooming past on a bike... :( ...hmmm.....well i threw a birthday bash went off well, ....except for a few blips here n there ...and a few people who couldnt make it bcos of time or bcos i didnt invite them...bad on me...chuck it.....PE-1 gt changed 2 CPT//...cool yaar.....fybcom exams were hell///1 month CPT ohhmaagod......things were pretty bad 2 say the least...loser i was...but than...the fun lies in losing everything b4 u gain all...but this wasnt the final test there was more to be endured as time shall tell....i won the intra college debate...hmm....but duh cliched the best speaker award...i m "J" of gurls...lol....met new friends....payal and harshita ....reading room of course where else??....n how can i forget hrudy for all those sweet little gestures n sandwiches of course....and what about my nite friends....all of them especially those feb people 4 keeping me awake beyond ma senses n inspiring 2 work hard...manali, priyanka, rohit, reshma, andy, kavi...the list is inclusive....and of course those late nite prep talks n all....life weird....all this culminates into 177/200...17th All India Rank in CPT....hmmm.....but surely without the support of all those people mentioned above this would be but another of my shattered dreams....and how do i forget sudhir sirs party and those juices n all...lifes certainly been smiling at me...dunno y???'
therein ends movenmber...enter december...literary lights..wheew/....works still pending....and than the Rostrum finals the ultimate barrier...and me coming threw not in parts but as a whole ...a decisive win../holy shit...and 2nd in GD......hmm..life been through much...and through all this how do i forget my cell n airtel...my friends....and than those people who make my life....but than theres still time 4 tat/...life was good again...maybe not at its best but good enough 4 me 2 be started ...and than comes rapport week....umm....i know...our class...halla-bol...4 some reason...up and away and than down and nowhere and yet the pride retained in us.....two trips 2 belapur...i hate those people....life downright sucks!!!..but m still liking it....

life - -a full circle!

i m as much surprised as confounded n confused at the human race n its ability 2 think in more plainer words its prowess 2 drag itself into a shit by ones very own deed or rather thoughts n its diffficult 2 admit but i m no xception
wats hilarious is tat we see ourselves 2 death, shame n such torture in the name of i donno wat when precisely the same happens wid the rest of the guys
as much as i hate 2 say ths at the end of the day hardly anyone of us is unique in a particular sense of the term!
anyways this isnt my topic or rather this isnt wat i wanted 2 say
this incident occured preety recently i dont rem the date a month or so ago as is the case i decide 2 use the bus instead of the better trains 4 the so called convenience
i was lucky 2 get a window seat on the 2nd last seat. behind sat this friendly couple. my emphasis on the words friendly couple bcos 1.they were a couple in the sense they were two n friendly bcos as i later discovered they were plain friends n had their respective affairs wid different ppl
by the way i rem the date it was 14th feb valentines day heheheheh
n i have already proved my inclination 2wards such quirk of fate their convo told me they were from wellingkar which kinda made my head's turn literaaly
they seemed d2 have a convo of the outlook of indian society n how still boys were expexcted 2 take care of their parents but it was not the case wid the girl child
as the cancvo wore on they were discusssing of their respective love lives n tat how commitment is always an isssue 4 the girl but guys dont like it
than it turned 2 more specific descriptions of how they were goona celebrate the day n the tp they both had wid thier respective fiancees also how both of them used 2 get around their parents 2 meet their fiancees
excuses by the girl like i m going 2 my friends house n the anxiety of being caught as the friend was out of town or something
whle the guy admiited 2 have supposedly hospitaliesed his friend 'n' number of times 4 a night out wid his gf
how heady moms get after seeing all this stupid saas bahu serials the commitment phobia n all such clash of generations ka topics
relating it on a personal level is not that difficult if not specific in nature
wat showed up n in a way i apppreciate was tat irrespective of their trying 2 get around their parents n tat was bcos they love n respect them they agree 2 n accept indian culture no matter what but they have no hassles in admitting that their 1 foot is alrady in the west
welll it certainly was eyeopener n entertaining 2 say the least!!

a matter of belief . . . . . . . . . . . .

being a teenager is not always easy atleast 4 those select few ppl who tend 2 be guided by their emations if not in day 2 day matters but atleast where it matters
n 4 some funny reason i have a come a long way from tat dead pratical outloook 2 the very downright stupid n emotional frame of mind n now 4 some another inconcieveable reason i m going back 2 or atleast trying 2 appear 2 go back 2 one those lost ways of life
u tend 2 wonder if wat u did is the best in the situation trying 2 live upto the opportunities of live r u able 2 exrtracrt the juice of life or is it tat u r unawre blissfullfy of something
ofcourse it s always the factor if one may say not comparision than atleast 4 some hell of a reason looking at others or rather interpretations of lifestyles --trust me n interpretation is soooo wrong-- has bcome a yard stick if not the sole factor governing the authenticity or the maximity of ur life
i finished my 12th boards 2day or say atleast 5 of them i wasnt happy wid the way they went n my forthcoming mks will be a testiomonuy 2 that
but 2 reasons glaringly stand out 1 is they didnt go well bcos i EXPEXTED them 2 go well
it is always when u expect when life dissapoints u
so i prefer 2 sketch my dreams in pencil rather than in ink!
n secondly although ofcourse each person has his own standards 2 comply wid i fell it not only madness stupidity n paronia but downright degradation of the human life that our perfomance is adjudged soley as a yard stick of how others manage 2 do i mean ur supposed 2 do whatever u do "well" but should ur putting in ur mind heart n soul 2 something be compared as just another of those stats - -- i wonder??

evasedroping!

this incident happened close 2 year n a half back. i was returning from college it was some kinda of puclic holiday n was waiting at the station 2 take my train as is the case with the trains normally they happened 2 be late n i took a seat besides a young couple. both were dreesed in formal business like clothes n was aparent from their talk that they were old friends who had happened 2 meet by chance. having nothing 2 do n 4 the sake of sheer fun i evasedropped their conversation. the girl was talking about her workplace n her group manager. she was relating a recent incident which occured when the company had gone 4 a picnic. she was sharing this anecdote told 2 her by the group manger. it seems the anecdote was picked up from a book written by harivanshrai bachan, the late father of the iconic amitabh bachan. it went this way n the reader is free 2 make his own interpretations of the content based on his level of understanding .n by he way its in hindi with a translation in the end.

1- : "aapne kuch socha aur woh hua toh accha hain."
2- : "aapne kuch socha aur woh nahin hua toh aur bhi accha hain"

by this time my train had come n i caught it. musing over what she said n inwardly smiling at the varied interpretations of this quote n 2 which i added 1 of my own 2 present the perfect climax

3- : "aapne kuch nahin socha aur woh hua toh isses accha shayad hi kuch hain"


translation--it might not necessarily retain the charm of the original
1- : 'u contemplate something and it happens that is a good thing'
2- :'u contemplate something and it does not happen that is a better thing'
3- :'u dont contemplate something and it happens that is probably the best thing'