Saturday, March 04, 2006

a matter of belief . . . . . . . . . . . .

being a teenager is not always easy atleast 4 those select few ppl who tend 2 be guided by their emations if not in day 2 day matters but atleast where it matters
n 4 some funny reason i have a come a long way from tat dead pratical outloook 2 the very downright stupid n emotional frame of mind n now 4 some another inconcieveable reason i m going back 2 or atleast trying 2 appear 2 go back 2 one those lost ways of life
u tend 2 wonder if wat u did is the best in the situation trying 2 live upto the opportunities of live r u able 2 exrtracrt the juice of life or is it tat u r unawre blissfullfy of something
ofcourse it s always the factor if one may say not comparision than atleast 4 some hell of a reason looking at others or rather interpretations of lifestyles --trust me n interpretation is soooo wrong-- has bcome a yard stick if not the sole factor governing the authenticity or the maximity of ur life
i finished my 12th boards 2day or say atleast 5 of them i wasnt happy wid the way they went n my forthcoming mks will be a testiomonuy 2 that
but 2 reasons glaringly stand out 1 is they didnt go well bcos i EXPEXTED them 2 go well
it is always when u expect when life dissapoints u
so i prefer 2 sketch my dreams in pencil rather than in ink!
n secondly although ofcourse each person has his own standards 2 comply wid i fell it not only madness stupidity n paronia but downright degradation of the human life that our perfomance is adjudged soley as a yard stick of how others manage 2 do i mean ur supposed 2 do whatever u do "well" but should ur putting in ur mind heart n soul 2 something be compared as just another of those stats - -- i wonder??

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