Well finally in the midst of another exam i find the time rather the inclination to pen a few words of what it feels to give this wretched exam in particular. The inspiration though come from a friend's post and as per her directive i will stick to the obvious without use of any short forms and avoid any reference to the contrary.
Studying is a pleasure which i have long forgotten, its an elaborate procedure almost a ritual of sorts for me. The proceedings of which start with the buying of new note books for each of the 6 subjects, new ball point pens and markers of all colors for god knows what reason, this than moves on to the collection of notes and xeroxing of any and all loose sheets of paper under the sun and how could i forget procuring of text books from the library for i am too lazy (read stingy or should i use economical?) to spend on buying it.
But what lies behind this elaborate exercise is a method in madness, i love being organized in the chaos that surround me and the mess that i am - a place for everything n everything in its place couldn't hit the nail better.
These days i spend most of my time languishing at the CA library Bullet as it is named, i find a sense of peace n quiet not found anywhere else. Aways from the hassles of my worlds, away from my office and clients, away from my family nothing to bother except you and your books, it give me the sense of a warrior out there on the battlefield all alone, each for himself and no one else.
Coming back to the word studying for some reason i cant get over it...its not just studying. i dont know if it is knowledge or wisdom or plain information that i m gathering but than i know for sure there is a bliss about learning. Something that i tremendously enjoy and am passionate about. The bliss of learning like the bliss of reading is beyond description, the sense of power and enchantment u feel when u learned it all in the sense of the term, and now compare that to the PCC exams round the corner, it is like i m preparing my self for the war ahead, the biggest event of the year, the show stealer or will it be non event afterall? Dunno i ponder a lot but i know Lives will be Changed Starting this November.A crappy Post...no idea what i wanna say!!!
