events.........

so wats different since the 21st of August....well i turned 18...whoa!!!>.....shame on me...still aint learnt driving yet and look at andy she is already zooming past on a bike... :( ...hmmm.....well i threw a birthday bash went off well, ....except for a few blips here n there ...and a few people who couldnt make it bcos of time or bcos i didnt invite them...bad on me...chuck it.....PE-1 gt changed 2 CPT//...cool yaar.....fybcom exams were hell///1 month CPT ohhmaagod......things were pretty bad 2 say the least...loser i was...but than...the fun lies in losing everything b4 u gain all...but this wasnt the final test there was more to be endured as time shall tell....i won the intra college debate...hmm....but duh cliched the best speaker award...i m "J" of gurls...lol....met new friends....payal and harshita ....reading room of course where else??....n how can i forget hrudy for all those sweet little gestures n sandwiches of course....and what about my nite friends....all of them especially those feb people 4 keeping me awake beyond ma senses n inspiring 2 work hard...manali, priyanka, rohit, reshma, andy, kavi...the list is inclusive....and of course those late nite prep talks n all....life weird....all this culminates into 177/200...17th All India Rank in CPT....hmmm.....but surely without the support of all those people mentioned above this would be but another of my shattered dreams....and how do i forget sudhir sirs party and those juices n all...lifes certainly been smiling at me...dunno y???'
therein ends movenmber...enter december...literary lights..wheew/....works still pending....and than the Rostrum finals the ultimate barrier...and me coming threw not in parts but as a whole ...a decisive win../holy shit...and 2nd in GD......hmm..life been through much...and through all this how do i forget my cell n airtel...my friends....and than those people who make my life....but than theres still time 4 tat/...life was good again...maybe not at its best but good enough 4 me 2 be started ...and than comes rapport week....umm....i know...our class...halla-bol...4 some reason...up and away and than down and nowhere and yet the pride retained in us.....two trips 2 belapur...i hate those people....life downright sucks!!!..but m still liking it....

An Apology

hmm...considering its been 4 months approx since i last blogged....sad...or rather bad....how could i be ignoring ma life...so i do owe n apology 2 ma blog 2 my net 2 my comp and above all 2 myself and time 4 this shit....4 these 4 months have been a roller coaster of sorts...a u turn characterised by events occasions moments truth lies fun happiness sadness n much more..........and maybe nows the time 2 etch it down in memory lane 4 once and 4 all....my luv.!!!

The 21st of August !!!

few days merit a special mention...4 reasons gud or bad..nd 2day is one such day
so wat r my feelings...
m i happy....umm...kinda
m i sad...not really..
m i hurt...u bet i m......
but than as i c it or rather pondering a few hrs has given me a kinda of undersanding which i myself m surprised tat i m capable off.....(its funny how time chnges ur perpective)
4 relatively a large part of these days were spent in xtremes of brooding, wishful thinking, hurt, happines n insanity 2 say the least nd than 2day wen i knw i hve lost y do i feel so relived so wunderful so nice abt myself??????
its kinda i was waitng 4 this end 4 it signals another phase ..may its juz a battle..nd the war lies ahead...but this war has ended..a new 1 will begin...but chnge is sure..i hve lost 4 sure ..
nd yet there is this feeling tat i hve gifted my enemy a wunderful gift 2 cherish..a gift which will allow my opponent 2 grow nd prosper...sm where within me..i bilv i hve gifted a part of me in a way it cant b destroyed.......wat beeter way 2 win over ur enemy than by making him ur own???.... mayb its not meant 4 the enemey's use.....mayb it will pass it on 2 sme1 else who is more matured 2 acept n appreciate the gift..but a gift nevertheless it is...nd boy mind u i have paid a heavy price 4 the gift........... :'(
i hve paid wid my own soul...Ahem!!!

Time....

its been sm tm since i blogged partly bcos the damn govt had instructed the isp's 2 block the site.
nywyas the mood is different ...i aint the same who blogged the same a few mths ago...so wat's new in the beta version??
hmm ...where 2 begin frm n where 2 end....fundamentaly the heart strings hve strted playing a tune which is cutting into my own heart,...ohk letz cut the crap..so wats next?/
life's hectic life's fun life cool n life sad lifes happy life is beautiful
i hate my life only 2 b able 2 luv it
there r few things which i seek 2 put in2 beeter prespective...a chngd look ...sm time..n lotsa luv caring understanding nd patience..i m happy n glad...hey its already 19th 2day/cool na ...juz a weeek for me 2 b 18 ..cool n than i will b able 2 review my life..whew!!!!
okie lets get bac 2 sme serious stuff............
i hate itrriatating ppl
i hate india govt 4 blocking my blog site
i luv my clg
i luv my frends
i luv blogging
i luv sleeping
i luv hanging abt wid frends
i luv being myself
i luv my school freinds
sm of my clg aquitances to say the least r pests
life's happening
life's losing it meaning only 2 mean smthing new
i hve lrnd 2 cry 2 knw y i shud b happy
i hve commited mistakes 2 knw tat i need2 do things the right way
the hardest thing in life is 2 c the one u luv luv sme1 else......
hurt is wat makes ur heart alive...
she came she saw nd she left me bleeding...
i m lucky....
i m Siddharth Parekh!!!!

A new begining...

A new begining...how sarcastic..umm probably paradoxical i da say
4 it conceals the vital n reveals the beautiful or rather reveals the hopeful..
hmmm so wats the paradox 1 may say......??
every begining is characteristic of an end
it siginfies the death of a period if not an era
i m unsure if it really is the death of a n era but positive that thing's r no longer wat they used 2 b.. nd y shud they b...wishful thinking can only succed in wetting my eyes or moving myself 2 my knees
nyways the pt being m i selfish enuf at being sooo hopeful abt the new begining in my life tat i tend 2 overlook the old end
but than the hurt is there the pain is there the realisaton is there of wat i m abt 2 lose or hve lost
nd m yet thoughtlessly hopeful abt the new begiinig
it feeels wunderful dosent it?
can u 2 smell the change in the air???
can u 2 feel the moist air wid the new leaves dying 2 shoot frm the branches or the early morning birds or say the beautiful evening skies????
they 2 r reminscent n sad of the almost gone summer but r so glad of the monsoon
may b my monsoon too 2 is round the corner
n the mangoes r no longer sweet
yet i may just b in time 2 enjoy my last meal.who knows god willin..hes always beeen notorious 2 say the least
nd than 2 where r those heavy showers 1 enjoys?at times u fear they may never coemme ......all u c is thunder n lighting but yet the pleasure they bring is known only 2 the 1 4 whom it is meant..there is a myth abt chakor waiting 4 the full moon..hiiii!!!


I know not where the path lies...
but I know for sure someone is seeking it.
I knw not if I will walk the path...
but I knw for sure I m awaiting for some to accompany me.
I knw not if this is wat I hve been waiting for...
but I knw for sure I am gonna give my best 2 life.