so wats different since the 21st of August....well i turned 18...whoa!!!>.....shame on me...still aint learnt driving yet and look at andy she is already zooming past on a bike... :( ...hmmm.....well i threw a birthday bash went off well, ....except for a few blips here n there ...and a few people who couldnt make it bcos of time or bcos i didnt invite them...bad on me...chuck it.....PE-1 gt changed 2 CPT//...cool yaar.....fybcom exams were hell///1 month CPT ohhmaagod......things were pretty bad 2 say the least...loser i was...but than...the fun lies in losing everything b4 u gain all...but this wasnt the final test there was more to be endured as time shall tell....i won the intra college debate...hmm....but duh cliched the best speaker award...i m "J" of gurls...lol....met new friends....payal and harshita ....reading room of course where else??....n how can i forget hrudy for all those sweet little gestures n sandwiches of course....and what about my nite friends....all of them especially those feb people 4 keeping me awake beyond ma senses n inspiring 2 work hard...manali, priyanka, rohit, reshma, andy, kavi...the list is inclusive....and of course those late nite prep talks n all....life weird....all this culminates into 177/200...17th All India Rank in CPT....hmmm.....but surely without the support of all those people mentioned above this would be but another of my shattered dreams....and how do i forget sudhir sirs party and those juices n all...lifes certainly been smiling at me...dunno y???'
therein ends movenmber...enter december...literary lights..wheew/....works still pending....and than the Rostrum finals the ultimate barrier...and me coming threw not in parts but as a whole ...a decisive win../holy shit...and 2nd in GD......hmm..life been through much...and through all this how do i forget my cell n airtel...my friends....and than those people who make my life....but than theres still time 4 tat/...life was good again...maybe not at its best but good enough 4 me 2 be started ...and than comes rapport week....umm....i know...our class...halla-bol...4 some reason...up and away and than down and nowhere and yet the pride retained in us.....two trips 2 belapur...i hate those people....life downright sucks!!!..but m still liking it....
Sunday, December 24, 2006
An Apology
hmm...considering its been 4 months approx since i last blogged....sad...or rather bad....how could i be ignoring ma life...so i do owe n apology 2 ma blog 2 my net 2 my comp and above all 2 myself and time 4 this shit....4 these 4 months have been a roller coaster of sorts...a u turn characterised by events occasions moments truth lies fun happiness sadness n much more..........and maybe nows the time 2 etch it down in memory lane 4 once and 4 all....my luv.!!!
Monday, August 21, 2006
The 21st of August !!!
few days merit a special mention...4 reasons gud or bad..nd 2day is one such day
so wat r my feelings...
m i happy....umm...kinda
m i sad...not really..
m i hurt...u bet i m......
but than as i c it or rather pondering a few hrs has given me a kinda of undersanding which i myself m surprised tat i m capable off.....(its funny how time chnges ur perpective)
4 relatively a large part of these days were spent in xtremes of brooding, wishful thinking, hurt, happines n insanity 2 say the least nd than 2day wen i knw i hve lost y do i feel so relived so wunderful so nice abt myself??????
its kinda i was waitng 4 this end 4 it signals another phase ..may its juz a battle..nd the war lies ahead...but this war has ended..a new 1 will begin...but chnge is sure..i hve lost 4 sure ..
nd yet there is this feeling tat i hve gifted my enemy a wunderful gift 2 cherish..a gift which will allow my opponent 2 grow nd prosper...sm where within me..i bilv i hve gifted a part of me in a way it cant b destroyed.......wat beeter way 2 win over ur enemy than by making him ur own???.... mayb its not meant 4 the enemey's use.....mayb it will pass it on 2 sme1 else who is more matured 2 acept n appreciate the gift..but a gift nevertheless it is...nd boy mind u i have paid a heavy price 4 the gift........... :'(
i hve paid wid my own soul...Ahem!!!
so wat r my feelings...
m i happy....umm...kinda
m i sad...not really..
m i hurt...u bet i m......
but than as i c it or rather pondering a few hrs has given me a kinda of undersanding which i myself m surprised tat i m capable off.....(its funny how time chnges ur perpective)
4 relatively a large part of these days were spent in xtremes of brooding, wishful thinking, hurt, happines n insanity 2 say the least nd than 2day wen i knw i hve lost y do i feel so relived so wunderful so nice abt myself??????
its kinda i was waitng 4 this end 4 it signals another phase ..may its juz a battle..nd the war lies ahead...but this war has ended..a new 1 will begin...but chnge is sure..i hve lost 4 sure ..
nd yet there is this feeling tat i hve gifted my enemy a wunderful gift 2 cherish..a gift which will allow my opponent 2 grow nd prosper...sm where within me..i bilv i hve gifted a part of me in a way it cant b destroyed.......wat beeter way 2 win over ur enemy than by making him ur own???.... mayb its not meant 4 the enemey's use.....mayb it will pass it on 2 sme1 else who is more matured 2 acept n appreciate the gift..but a gift nevertheless it is...nd boy mind u i have paid a heavy price 4 the gift........... :'(
i hve paid wid my own soul...Ahem!!!
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Time....
its been sm tm since i blogged partly bcos the damn govt had instructed the isp's 2 block the site.
nywyas the mood is different ...i aint the same who blogged the same a few mths ago...so wat's new in the beta version??
hmm ...where 2 begin frm n where 2 end....fundamentaly the heart strings hve strted playing a tune which is cutting into my own heart,...ohk letz cut the crap..so wats next?/
life's hectic life's fun life cool n life sad lifes happy life is beautiful
i hate my life only 2 b able 2 luv it
there r few things which i seek 2 put in2 beeter prespective...a chngd look ...sm time..n lotsa luv caring understanding nd patience..i m happy n glad...hey its already 19th 2day/cool na ...juz a weeek for me 2 b 18 ..cool n than i will b able 2 review my life..whew!!!!
okie lets get bac 2 sme serious stuff............
i hate itrriatating ppl
i hate india govt 4 blocking my blog site
i luv my clg
i luv my frends
i luv blogging
i luv sleeping
i luv hanging abt wid frends
i luv being myself
i luv my school freinds
sm of my clg aquitances to say the least r pests
life's happening
life's losing it meaning only 2 mean smthing new
i hve lrnd 2 cry 2 knw y i shud b happy
i hve commited mistakes 2 knw tat i need2 do things the right way
the hardest thing in life is 2 c the one u luv luv sme1 else......
hurt is wat makes ur heart alive...
she came she saw nd she left me bleeding...
i m lucky....
i m Siddharth Parekh!!!!
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
A new begining...
A new begining...how sarcastic..umm probably paradoxical i da say
4 it conceals the vital n reveals the beautiful or rather reveals the hopeful..
hmmm so wats the paradox 1 may say......??
every begining is characteristic of an end
it siginfies the death of a period if not an era
i m unsure if it really is the death of a n era but positive that thing's r no longer wat they used 2 b.. nd y shud they b...wishful thinking can only succed in wetting my eyes or moving myself 2 my knees
nyways the pt being m i selfish enuf at being sooo hopeful abt the new begining in my life tat i tend 2 overlook the old end
but than the hurt is there the pain is there the realisaton is there of wat i m abt 2 lose or hve lost
nd m yet thoughtlessly hopeful abt the new begiinig
it feeels wunderful dosent it?
can u 2 smell the change in the air???
can u 2 feel the moist air wid the new leaves dying 2 shoot frm the branches or the early morning birds or say the beautiful evening skies????
they 2 r reminscent n sad of the almost gone summer but r so glad of the monsoon
may b my monsoon too 2 is round the corner
n the mangoes r no longer sweet
yet i may just b in time 2 enjoy my last meal.who knows god willin..hes always beeen notorious 2 say the least
nd than 2 where r those heavy showers 1 enjoys?at times u fear they may never coemme ......all u c is thunder n lighting but yet the pleasure they bring is known only 2 the 1 4 whom it is meant..there is a myth abt chakor waiting 4 the full moon..hiiii!!!
I know not where the path lies...
but I know for sure someone is seeking it.
I knw not if I will walk the path...
but I knw for sure I m awaiting for some to accompany me.
I knw not if this is wat I hve been waiting for...
but I knw for sure I am gonna give my best 2 life.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
coping up!!!
life is cool...at times it is just enravels itself in a funny way..or rather a not so gr8 way...it st tm pains n even hurts u look abt situations.... stuff.... the way ppl reacted in a particualrar situation..many a times ur not so comfy wid these things n than yet such is life or rather this is the life that 1 leads.....
the other day a fren of mine remarked
memories some times behave in a crazy way--they leave u alone when you are in a crowd and when u r alone they stand along u like a crowd
such a funny--pathetic--sarcastic --yet truly made remark.............................
wat ensued was a formidable discussion on nature........ characteritics......... n requirements of memories
is it in our hands 2 make gud memories???
is it in our potential 2 turn the tables arund???
is it sufficient enuf 2 stive 4 being a gud memory???
surely life can offer more than that....................
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
YOUTH FOR EQUALITY
YOUTH FOR EQUALITY
The 93rd Amendment allows the Government to increase quota based on castes to 49.5% from the existing 22.5%. In Maharashtra, all PRIVATE COLLEGES will also have 50% quota.
WHAT DOES IT MEAN?
In short, your months of hard-work don’t assure you a seat in the institute you have dreamt about. The Government’s concept of social equality implies over-riding the students with merit. Your caste – something you have never even thought about, can seal your fate.
THE ‘C’ IN ‘CAT’ AND ‘CET’ STANDS FOR ‘CASTE’ INSTEAD OF ‘COMMON’
Choose to fight for your right to equality, or soon become a victim to the quota system.
• The IITs have an intake of around 5000 students. Increasing reservations by 27% would cause 1350 deserving students from general category to lose out on IIT education.
• In the best medical institute, Rank 101 can’t find a seat but Rank 10000 can do so in the reserved category in Maharashtra.
• Currently, the cut-off for Orthopaedic stream ends at Rank 135 for general category and a shocking Rank 2500 for reserved candidates.
If the bill is passed, all IITs, IIMs, JNU, AIIMS, NIFT, NIFD, Law colleges, RECs, NITs and Central and State level institutes will have to implement these quotas.
Quotas in higher education now…What next ?? Quotas in jobs ?? Quotas in Parliament and State Legislatures ?? Quotas in our Cricket team ??
Before elections in just 5 states, reservations increase by 27%. Before general elections…??
HOW CAN YOU AFFECT A CHANGE ?
Will you wait till they reserve every seat you deserve? Every voice counts. We believe that the 93rd Amendment violates our constitutional right to equality and we will fight it till the very end. YOUTH FOR EQUALITY is a movement that started in Delhi and is spreading all across the country. Students, Parents, Teachers, Senior citizens, all are welcome to be a part of us. Come together to speak out against this law which divides people under the guise of empowering them. This is not a battle between castes; It’s an opportunity for INDIANS of all castes and religions to unite and refuse to be treated as mere vote-banks. Now YOU have a choice. Either watch the Government use vote-bank politics OR unite and send out a strong message.
YFE will be organizing rallies, protests and signature campaigns. Help us make this a larger movement. Don’t think that it won’t affect you. IT AFFECTS EVERY ONE OF US.
Log on to http://yfemumbai.blogspot.com and join our movement.
The 93rd Amendment allows the Government to increase quota based on castes to 49.5% from the existing 22.5%. In Maharashtra, all PRIVATE COLLEGES will also have 50% quota.
WHAT DOES IT MEAN?
In short, your months of hard-work don’t assure you a seat in the institute you have dreamt about. The Government’s concept of social equality implies over-riding the students with merit. Your caste – something you have never even thought about, can seal your fate.
THE ‘C’ IN ‘CAT’ AND ‘CET’ STANDS FOR ‘CASTE’ INSTEAD OF ‘COMMON’
Choose to fight for your right to equality, or soon become a victim to the quota system.
• The IITs have an intake of around 5000 students. Increasing reservations by 27% would cause 1350 deserving students from general category to lose out on IIT education.
• In the best medical institute, Rank 101 can’t find a seat but Rank 10000 can do so in the reserved category in Maharashtra.
• Currently, the cut-off for Orthopaedic stream ends at Rank 135 for general category and a shocking Rank 2500 for reserved candidates.
If the bill is passed, all IITs, IIMs, JNU, AIIMS, NIFT, NIFD, Law colleges, RECs, NITs and Central and State level institutes will have to implement these quotas.
Quotas in higher education now…What next ?? Quotas in jobs ?? Quotas in Parliament and State Legislatures ?? Quotas in our Cricket team ??
Before elections in just 5 states, reservations increase by 27%. Before general elections…??
HOW CAN YOU AFFECT A CHANGE ?
Will you wait till they reserve every seat you deserve? Every voice counts. We believe that the 93rd Amendment violates our constitutional right to equality and we will fight it till the very end. YOUTH FOR EQUALITY is a movement that started in Delhi and is spreading all across the country. Students, Parents, Teachers, Senior citizens, all are welcome to be a part of us. Come together to speak out against this law which divides people under the guise of empowering them. This is not a battle between castes; It’s an opportunity for INDIANS of all castes and religions to unite and refuse to be treated as mere vote-banks. Now YOU have a choice. Either watch the Government use vote-bank politics OR unite and send out a strong message.
YFE will be organizing rallies, protests and signature campaigns. Help us make this a larger movement. Don’t think that it won’t affect you. IT AFFECTS EVERY ONE OF US.
Log on to http://yfemumbai.blogspot.com and join our movement.
fragility
hmm how fragile relations r??
wrong question
how fragile r the ppl in a relation??
wrong question
how fragile is the sancitity of a relations??
wrong question
how fragile is one's prespective of a relation??
hmmm shud i say it-- again wrong question
how fragile r one's feelings in a relation
bingo---i shud be awarded the ignoble prize 4 this
soo heres where the trouble starts and the trouble ends
wow!!!!!
ppl r real ppl. ppl r good. normally they remain the same.
equations in a relation r real.equations r optimal 2 suit both the ppls needs nd yet they @ times maintain their original balance..
prespective --debate-able i wud say but than wat is prespective ahaa i m lost wid words
feeling -- aha thats the mischief-maker ' how u feel '
is it just me or wid rest of u all?? things go perfectly fine n 1 day u feel choked in the reations
things r perfectly fine n 1 word 1 incident nd no longer the same sanity the same peace the same joy it hurts it itches but dont let it pain!! how come?? y not??
i m again at croosroads in life. y always me??
or shud i say lucky 2 b me........
hmm step ahead n falter u knw u will
or stay back n anyways lose
dunno felling so moronic hate my apathy my indecision 2 convey my feelings my true self my true being
m i jealous or envious naaaaaaaaa
how easy 2 say a no naaa
kk being hypocrite
hmm where does that leave things as usual nowhere
PS:
"old friends: old wine :: new times: new bottle."
hai yeh mazbooriya kambhat zina bhi mushkill kar deti hain
sometime rude shocks r neccesary 2 bring u out of self imposed dreams of slumber
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
feelings
hmm nice topic bcos the last 36 hrs have been such a roller coaster ride that i really dont knw wat 2 spk from moments of extreme depression 2 real ecstacy i mean wat is that u xpect from ppl
i felt it again 2day
m i unecessarily being pulled in a rat race not xactly but atleast into the endless world of being in the top m i trying 2 enjoy it nd m i pulllig my other freinds into it??/
nice question?
when does passion 4 our work or say life in general turn into endless spiral i hope that is not the case
but as always i swear by the procees
hmm btw i have just acquiresd a recent "passion" 4 english songs?? no ideas y!!
hmmm so "where is life heading?"
hmm so "where m i heading?"
how distinct r the 2 above questions if they r somebody plss tell me.
they may superficially say the line oof distinction may lie in being proactive or shud i say even wen i dont understand the very wrds it considers in merging these 2 question wid one wen u bcom 1 wid life!
somebody hepl i m damn lost huh!!
wen somebody pays small attention 2 details which u spoke of it feels so elated nd than u realise the price of ur words nd u thank god 4 such frens maybe the price remains in keeping ur mouth shut
hmm nd well i missing my new frens even as i grapple wid the old ones not that things r sour, they aint just sweet nd than i still realise i m still damn adamnat abt my frens the way i was b4 glad 2 knw
i again ask is commitment equated 2 stagnancy ??or wen commitment bcomes stagnancy 2 ur basic values n ideals n way of life is it wrong???
probably not !!!!!!
delhi trip!
hi 2 all seems i m returning back after a long time btw this is the pic from my delhi trip. oh my gawd it was an awesome expereince n fun nd educative of course nd my new frends of i miss 'em soooo much!!!!
ny ways cya m in 2 guuuuuuud a mood 2 blog!
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
blurred vision
life the say is blurred or rather i say it is blurred
dont ask why?
m i behaving abnormaly
but than what the shit is normal?
y this erractic-ness?
seriously doono
y is the quest 2 win in life more important than the procees?
seriouly dunno
i wonder when my friends change
and i wonder y i did not
have i become so myopic that i have equated fidelity with stagnancy
no i dont think so
but wid a surge of pride i da say maybe i was close 2 my best than as i m right now
i was pained not as much angry as maybe found hopelessnees n stark conformity of the unknown when my friends starkly admit that they have changed
a few even vouch 2 stay by it y?
i seek blissfully unaware while a few try 2 explain it will take time 2 regain lost ground lost freedon lost self---whatever
so where does that leave things ?
frankly nowhere !!!
dont ask why?
m i behaving abnormaly
but than what the shit is normal?
y this erractic-ness?
seriously doono
y is the quest 2 win in life more important than the procees?
seriouly dunno
i wonder when my friends change
and i wonder y i did not
have i become so myopic that i have equated fidelity with stagnancy
no i dont think so
but wid a surge of pride i da say maybe i was close 2 my best than as i m right now
i was pained not as much angry as maybe found hopelessnees n stark conformity of the unknown when my friends starkly admit that they have changed
a few even vouch 2 stay by it y?
i seek blissfully unaware while a few try 2 explain it will take time 2 regain lost ground lost freedon lost self---whatever
so where does that leave things ?
frankly nowhere !!!
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
life!
life they say is wierd. i did prefer 2 use the word that life is repeat, boring, dull, cynic n maybe it mocks u . u wonder y u? no i wont say y me - - - but the temptation is too much 2 resit.
well such is life and @ such moments u tend 2 cling more so in particular than in parts to what is urs only urs by right! 4 the simple reason that it pains 2 see someone leave u.
am i hurt?. a no would be a lie.
i duuno y i m hurt! i knew this was comming. if it wouldnt have come from some1 else i myself wud have initiated it than y does it hurt so much y does it pain beyond understanding.
plain bcos wen it started it was supoosed 2 be well it didnt start there was no starting and that is precisely y its hurting as its gotta ending. funny the answers i seek the most lie within me.
no shit! still is it that elusive? is it tat precious or was it just a dream ?
well dreams dont materialise. some1 may hit back how does it matter 2 u ? ur dreams r in pencil anyways? ya true but i will erase them wid my tears n my time or rather wid time if tat means sth 2 some1 .
and than i see myself so lucky . yes lucky! y 1 may ask? well bcos although i have still not got in touch but i say i have a such strong support system, which my indiffernce may suggest, i have taken 4 granted but here's where matters stand undisclosed, unrefuted, unabjudicated unjudged, unbiased and un-wahtever. have i become so maddened by my own pain or say loss that i do not see things as they r on the other side ?
i m bleesed but m not sure if others are?i ask r 'You'?
i do not do charity but 2day even as my loss seems unnbeareable i manage 2 spare a thought abt it maybe bcos i truly care. abt that someone's condition. i duuno if such friends n support systems exist everywhere and if i didnt pull off the inevitable it was bcos somewhere within me i was aware of some1 else loss n or maye pain rather heplessness selfguilt n disamy the way i felt-- i believe it should hurt n y wont it? was it not true?
i doono wat my role is or rather i know wat i want to do but doono if tats acceptable 2 u yes i m asking 'You' above all 2 life.
as a cynic who returns 2 where he came from all i have gotta 2 say is
"love-life or rather love and life!"
PS: A WISE (WO)MAN IS ONE WHO HAS THE INNER COURAGE TO RECOGNISE AND APPROACH ONE'S TRUE FRIEND IN TIMES OF NEED FOR THE TRUE FRIEND WILL ALWAYS WAIT!
well such is life and @ such moments u tend 2 cling more so in particular than in parts to what is urs only urs by right! 4 the simple reason that it pains 2 see someone leave u.
am i hurt?. a no would be a lie.
i duuno y i m hurt! i knew this was comming. if it wouldnt have come from some1 else i myself wud have initiated it than y does it hurt so much y does it pain beyond understanding.
plain bcos wen it started it was supoosed 2 be well it didnt start there was no starting and that is precisely y its hurting as its gotta ending. funny the answers i seek the most lie within me.
no shit! still is it that elusive? is it tat precious or was it just a dream ?
well dreams dont materialise. some1 may hit back how does it matter 2 u ? ur dreams r in pencil anyways? ya true but i will erase them wid my tears n my time or rather wid time if tat means sth 2 some1 .
and than i see myself so lucky . yes lucky! y 1 may ask? well bcos although i have still not got in touch but i say i have a such strong support system, which my indiffernce may suggest, i have taken 4 granted but here's where matters stand undisclosed, unrefuted, unabjudicated unjudged, unbiased and un-wahtever. have i become so maddened by my own pain or say loss that i do not see things as they r on the other side ?
i m bleesed but m not sure if others are?i ask r 'You'?
i do not do charity but 2day even as my loss seems unnbeareable i manage 2 spare a thought abt it maybe bcos i truly care. abt that someone's condition. i duuno if such friends n support systems exist everywhere and if i didnt pull off the inevitable it was bcos somewhere within me i was aware of some1 else loss n or maye pain rather heplessness selfguilt n disamy the way i felt-- i believe it should hurt n y wont it? was it not true?
i doono wat my role is or rather i know wat i want to do but doono if tats acceptable 2 u yes i m asking 'You' above all 2 life.
as a cynic who returns 2 where he came from all i have gotta 2 say is
"love-life or rather love and life!"
PS: A WISE (WO)MAN IS ONE WHO HAS THE INNER COURAGE TO RECOGNISE AND APPROACH ONE'S TRUE FRIEND IN TIMES OF NEED FOR THE TRUE FRIEND WILL ALWAYS WAIT!
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
life - -a full circle!
i m as much surprised as confounded n confused at the human race n its ability 2 think in more plainer words its prowess 2 drag itself into a shit by ones very own deed or rather thoughts n its diffficult 2 admit but i m no xception
wats hilarious is tat we see ourselves 2 death, shame n such torture in the name of i donno wat when precisely the same happens wid the rest of the guys
as much as i hate 2 say ths at the end of the day hardly anyone of us is unique in a particular sense of the term!
anyways this isnt my topic or rather this isnt wat i wanted 2 say
this incident occured preety recently i dont rem the date a month or so ago as is the case i decide 2 use the bus instead of the better trains 4 the so called convenience
i was lucky 2 get a window seat on the 2nd last seat. behind sat this friendly couple. my emphasis on the words friendly couple bcos 1.they were a couple in the sense they were two n friendly bcos as i later discovered they were plain friends n had their respective affairs wid different ppl
by the way i rem the date it was 14th feb valentines day heheheheh
n i have already proved my inclination 2wards such quirk of fate their convo told me they were from wellingkar which kinda made my head's turn literaaly
they seemed d2 have a convo of the outlook of indian society n how still boys were expexcted 2 take care of their parents but it was not the case wid the girl child
as the cancvo wore on they were discusssing of their respective love lives n tat how commitment is always an isssue 4 the girl but guys dont like it
than it turned 2 more specific descriptions of how they were goona celebrate the day n the tp they both had wid thier respective fiancees also how both of them used 2 get around their parents 2 meet their fiancees
excuses by the girl like i m going 2 my friends house n the anxiety of being caught as the friend was out of town or something
whle the guy admiited 2 have supposedly hospitaliesed his friend 'n' number of times 4 a night out wid his gf
how heady moms get after seeing all this stupid saas bahu serials the commitment phobia n all such clash of generations ka topics
relating it on a personal level is not that difficult if not specific in nature
wat showed up n in a way i apppreciate was tat irrespective of their trying 2 get around their parents n tat was bcos they love n respect them they agree 2 n accept indian culture no matter what but they have no hassles in admitting that their 1 foot is alrady in the west
welll it certainly was eyeopener n entertaining 2 say the least!!
wats hilarious is tat we see ourselves 2 death, shame n such torture in the name of i donno wat when precisely the same happens wid the rest of the guys
as much as i hate 2 say ths at the end of the day hardly anyone of us is unique in a particular sense of the term!
anyways this isnt my topic or rather this isnt wat i wanted 2 say
this incident occured preety recently i dont rem the date a month or so ago as is the case i decide 2 use the bus instead of the better trains 4 the so called convenience
i was lucky 2 get a window seat on the 2nd last seat. behind sat this friendly couple. my emphasis on the words friendly couple bcos 1.they were a couple in the sense they were two n friendly bcos as i later discovered they were plain friends n had their respective affairs wid different ppl
by the way i rem the date it was 14th feb valentines day heheheheh
n i have already proved my inclination 2wards such quirk of fate their convo told me they were from wellingkar which kinda made my head's turn literaaly
they seemed d2 have a convo of the outlook of indian society n how still boys were expexcted 2 take care of their parents but it was not the case wid the girl child
as the cancvo wore on they were discusssing of their respective love lives n tat how commitment is always an isssue 4 the girl but guys dont like it
than it turned 2 more specific descriptions of how they were goona celebrate the day n the tp they both had wid thier respective fiancees also how both of them used 2 get around their parents 2 meet their fiancees
excuses by the girl like i m going 2 my friends house n the anxiety of being caught as the friend was out of town or something
whle the guy admiited 2 have supposedly hospitaliesed his friend 'n' number of times 4 a night out wid his gf
how heady moms get after seeing all this stupid saas bahu serials the commitment phobia n all such clash of generations ka topics
relating it on a personal level is not that difficult if not specific in nature
wat showed up n in a way i apppreciate was tat irrespective of their trying 2 get around their parents n tat was bcos they love n respect them they agree 2 n accept indian culture no matter what but they have no hassles in admitting that their 1 foot is alrady in the west
welll it certainly was eyeopener n entertaining 2 say the least!!
Saturday, March 04, 2006
a matter of belief . . . . . . . . . . . .
being a teenager is not always easy atleast 4 those select few ppl who tend 2 be guided by their emations if not in day 2 day matters but atleast where it matters
n 4 some funny reason i have a come a long way from tat dead pratical outloook 2 the very downright stupid n emotional frame of mind n now 4 some another inconcieveable reason i m going back 2 or atleast trying 2 appear 2 go back 2 one those lost ways of life
u tend 2 wonder if wat u did is the best in the situation trying 2 live upto the opportunities of live r u able 2 exrtracrt the juice of life or is it tat u r unawre blissfullfy of something
ofcourse it s always the factor if one may say not comparision than atleast 4 some hell of a reason looking at others or rather interpretations of lifestyles --trust me n interpretation is soooo wrong-- has bcome a yard stick if not the sole factor governing the authenticity or the maximity of ur life
i finished my 12th boards 2day or say atleast 5 of them i wasnt happy wid the way they went n my forthcoming mks will be a testiomonuy 2 that
but 2 reasons glaringly stand out 1 is they didnt go well bcos i EXPEXTED them 2 go well
it is always when u expect when life dissapoints u
so i prefer 2 sketch my dreams in pencil rather than in ink!
n secondly although ofcourse each person has his own standards 2 comply wid i fell it not only madness stupidity n paronia but downright degradation of the human life that our perfomance is adjudged soley as a yard stick of how others manage 2 do i mean ur supposed 2 do whatever u do "well" but should ur putting in ur mind heart n soul 2 something be compared as just another of those stats - -- i wonder??
n 4 some funny reason i have a come a long way from tat dead pratical outloook 2 the very downright stupid n emotional frame of mind n now 4 some another inconcieveable reason i m going back 2 or atleast trying 2 appear 2 go back 2 one those lost ways of life
u tend 2 wonder if wat u did is the best in the situation trying 2 live upto the opportunities of live r u able 2 exrtracrt the juice of life or is it tat u r unawre blissfullfy of something
ofcourse it s always the factor if one may say not comparision than atleast 4 some hell of a reason looking at others or rather interpretations of lifestyles --trust me n interpretation is soooo wrong-- has bcome a yard stick if not the sole factor governing the authenticity or the maximity of ur life
i finished my 12th boards 2day or say atleast 5 of them i wasnt happy wid the way they went n my forthcoming mks will be a testiomonuy 2 that
but 2 reasons glaringly stand out 1 is they didnt go well bcos i EXPEXTED them 2 go well
it is always when u expect when life dissapoints u
so i prefer 2 sketch my dreams in pencil rather than in ink!
n secondly although ofcourse each person has his own standards 2 comply wid i fell it not only madness stupidity n paronia but downright degradation of the human life that our perfomance is adjudged soley as a yard stick of how others manage 2 do i mean ur supposed 2 do whatever u do "well" but should ur putting in ur mind heart n soul 2 something be compared as just another of those stats - -- i wonder??
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
matters of the heart (oopsey mind , i forget the heart cant feel!!)
its so funny n still wierd so-so close yet so far !!!!!!!!
sometimes i hate myself 4 it
can u belivee got 2 fuckin exAms left n m blooging shit
but yeah such is life right it sucks n i dont know where 2 turn my heart 2
some time u wonder y do u run from thing like a coward when u know damn it thats gonna happenn u waana live life u got have the balls 2 risk it
i have never admitted i m one of the most cowardly persons on this planet or atleast 4 2night m
the vey guy who give the msg 2 his supposedly :: y now i m being harsh aabt facing life wid a step forward n such stupidity but u love 2 wrap it in the cloak of uniquiness
n i know nobody can challenge tat as if some body realay cared
shit fuck this day eco went normal but not gr8 as i would have loved 2 i wonder whow my friends ka have gone
i did prefer 2 wait than calll up
4 some reason i m checking up my ::welll lets be not that explixcit
any ways will have 2 do maths no matter wat
i always realised or rather the ingenuity of the statemenyt is so obvious i marvel at it 4 hours nn cry out in laughter its not mine picked it up from :: '3 muskeeters' byy... cant damn remember the french author. . . . .
it goes "" IN LOVE EVERYONE IS FOR ONESELF ""
the statements appeal is enhanced by the situation where this statement is made
n i say well there is always a season 4 change today i do tom someone else will
waqt batayega kiss raha par hamme aap payege!!
“We reap what we sow. We are the makers of our own fate.
The wind is blowing; those vessels whose sails are unfurled
catch it, and go forward on their way, but those which have
their sails furled do not catch the wind. Is that the fault of
the wind?....... We make our own destiny.”
Swami Vivekananda
sometimes i hate myself 4 it
can u belivee got 2 fuckin exAms left n m blooging shit
but yeah such is life right it sucks n i dont know where 2 turn my heart 2
some time u wonder y do u run from thing like a coward when u know damn it thats gonna happenn u waana live life u got have the balls 2 risk it
i have never admitted i m one of the most cowardly persons on this planet or atleast 4 2night m
the vey guy who give the msg 2 his supposedly :: y now i m being harsh aabt facing life wid a step forward n such stupidity but u love 2 wrap it in the cloak of uniquiness
n i know nobody can challenge tat as if some body realay cared
shit fuck this day eco went normal but not gr8 as i would have loved 2 i wonder whow my friends ka have gone
i did prefer 2 wait than calll up
4 some reason i m checking up my ::welll lets be not that explixcit
any ways will have 2 do maths no matter wat
i always realised or rather the ingenuity of the statemenyt is so obvious i marvel at it 4 hours nn cry out in laughter its not mine picked it up from :: '3 muskeeters' byy... cant damn remember the french author. . . . .
it goes "" IN LOVE EVERYONE IS FOR ONESELF ""
the statements appeal is enhanced by the situation where this statement is made
n i say well there is always a season 4 change today i do tom someone else will
waqt batayega kiss raha par hamme aap payege!!
“We reap what we sow. We are the makers of our own fate.
The wind is blowing; those vessels whose sails are unfurled
catch it, and go forward on their way, but those which have
their sails furled do not catch the wind. Is that the fault of
the wind?....... We make our own destiny.”
Swami Vivekananda
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
a case 4 'beating around the bush'
The recent events of protests following the the publishing of prophet Mohammed caricatures by a danish papers is disgusting and appaling to say the least.
What the Danish papers did was in no way wrong as at worst it is bad humor or satire and what they did in no way lead to direct hatred or violoence, at the best the average reader would have allowed n rare smile cross his lips and relegate the paper 2 history. n besides wat was expressed was an viewpoint by the cartoonist n it should be left to the sensiblities of the reader 2 form his own opinion.
The reaction is unwarranted n not reqired. one should understand that the freedom of expreesion as it is widely acknowledged does not entitle the right 2 hurt or demonise some community or nation but at the same time the very words freedom of expression in themselve contain the right to mock n jest or protest and condem what they feel is correct afterall it is a form of human outlet or rather opinion.
What the muslim brethren do not undesrtand is that we live in a civilised world n the right of expressing ones views howerver incorrect they might be is a fundamental right,similary they 2 have n inherent right to oppose to what is being published in a civilised manner by way of peaceful protest, demonstratrions n the like but their very act of violence against danish embassies , their citizens , economic sanctions (mind u its 1 of the most liberal EU nations) r un warranted 4 they seek to impress upon the ppl of the world the very image they r trying 2 protect n disown.
n the very fact that we r human beings makes a mix of good n evil as we try 2 come 2 terms with it . n let us accept that 4 all the bulshit abt civilisation n culture 'might is right'. be it economic or sheer numbers n what is the sad part is both the western forces n the muslim world r equaly equipped if not any less
so what is the truth ? i feel it lies somewhere in between it. nor is evey practicioner of islam another clone of osama bin laden nor is america/ns what is being made out in abu gahrib or iraq. it is a simple faux pas of extending the identity of few prominent in the lime light ppl 2 the entire community/nation at large. naa if the reader feels that this piece of shit 2 is gonna call upon world peace n harmony than they r grossly mislead while these ppl try 2 sort out the matter , us lesser mortals can take a back seat n smile at this stupid tendency of human beings.
for some reason the most 2 gain of this controversy will be mr.Bush 4 it wiill strenthen his argument 4 a fight aginst terror n making him a hero atleast in american hinterland.
personnaly speaking the more ppl hate him the more my heart grows fonder of him as i see how he has managed 2 retain the numero uno position 4 america by being in thick of actions the world over(at what cost 1 may ask but well they can pay!) n 4 whatever critics say the american economy is up n working.
india seems 2 have toed a wise line in following n circumventing 2 american wishes in nuclear issues. as i remember henry kissingers words "in politics there is nothing like permanent friends or enemies only permanent national interests" so go ahead india milk the cow as long as the grass is green.
What the Danish papers did was in no way wrong as at worst it is bad humor or satire and what they did in no way lead to direct hatred or violoence, at the best the average reader would have allowed n rare smile cross his lips and relegate the paper 2 history. n besides wat was expressed was an viewpoint by the cartoonist n it should be left to the sensiblities of the reader 2 form his own opinion.
The reaction is unwarranted n not reqired. one should understand that the freedom of expreesion as it is widely acknowledged does not entitle the right 2 hurt or demonise some community or nation but at the same time the very words freedom of expression in themselve contain the right to mock n jest or protest and condem what they feel is correct afterall it is a form of human outlet or rather opinion.
What the muslim brethren do not undesrtand is that we live in a civilised world n the right of expressing ones views howerver incorrect they might be is a fundamental right,similary they 2 have n inherent right to oppose to what is being published in a civilised manner by way of peaceful protest, demonstratrions n the like but their very act of violence against danish embassies , their citizens , economic sanctions (mind u its 1 of the most liberal EU nations) r un warranted 4 they seek to impress upon the ppl of the world the very image they r trying 2 protect n disown.
n the very fact that we r human beings makes a mix of good n evil as we try 2 come 2 terms with it . n let us accept that 4 all the bulshit abt civilisation n culture 'might is right'. be it economic or sheer numbers n what is the sad part is both the western forces n the muslim world r equaly equipped if not any less
so what is the truth ? i feel it lies somewhere in between it. nor is evey practicioner of islam another clone of osama bin laden nor is america/ns what is being made out in abu gahrib or iraq. it is a simple faux pas of extending the identity of few prominent in the lime light ppl 2 the entire community/nation at large. naa if the reader feels that this piece of shit 2 is gonna call upon world peace n harmony than they r grossly mislead while these ppl try 2 sort out the matter , us lesser mortals can take a back seat n smile at this stupid tendency of human beings.
for some reason the most 2 gain of this controversy will be mr.Bush 4 it wiill strenthen his argument 4 a fight aginst terror n making him a hero atleast in american hinterland.
personnaly speaking the more ppl hate him the more my heart grows fonder of him as i see how he has managed 2 retain the numero uno position 4 america by being in thick of actions the world over(at what cost 1 may ask but well they can pay!) n 4 whatever critics say the american economy is up n working.
india seems 2 have toed a wise line in following n circumventing 2 american wishes in nuclear issues. as i remember henry kissingers words "in politics there is nothing like permanent friends or enemies only permanent national interests" so go ahead india milk the cow as long as the grass is green.
evasedroping!
this incident happened close 2 year n a half back. i was returning from college it was some kinda of puclic holiday n was waiting at the station 2 take my train as is the case with the trains normally they happened 2 be late n i took a seat besides a young couple. both were dreesed in formal business like clothes n was aparent from their talk that they were old friends who had happened 2 meet by chance. having nothing 2 do n 4 the sake of sheer fun i evasedropped their conversation. the girl was talking about her workplace n her group manager. she was relating a recent incident which occured when the company had gone 4 a picnic. she was sharing this anecdote told 2 her by the group manger. it seems the anecdote was picked up from a book written by harivanshrai bachan, the late father of the iconic amitabh bachan. it went this way n the reader is free 2 make his own interpretations of the content based on his level of understanding .n by he way its in hindi with a translation in the end.
1- : "aapne kuch socha aur woh hua toh accha hain."
2- : "aapne kuch socha aur woh nahin hua toh aur bhi accha hain"
by this time my train had come n i caught it. musing over what she said n inwardly smiling at the varied interpretations of this quote n 2 which i added 1 of my own 2 present the perfect climax
3- : "aapne kuch nahin socha aur woh hua toh isses accha shayad hi kuch hain"
translation--it might not necessarily retain the charm of the original
1- : 'u contemplate something and it happens that is a good thing'
2- :'u contemplate something and it does not happen that is a better thing'
3- :'u dont contemplate something and it happens that is probably the best thing'
1- : "aapne kuch socha aur woh hua toh accha hain."
2- : "aapne kuch socha aur woh nahin hua toh aur bhi accha hain"
by this time my train had come n i caught it. musing over what she said n inwardly smiling at the varied interpretations of this quote n 2 which i added 1 of my own 2 present the perfect climax
3- : "aapne kuch nahin socha aur woh hua toh isses accha shayad hi kuch hain"
translation--it might not necessarily retain the charm of the original
1- : 'u contemplate something and it happens that is a good thing'
2- :'u contemplate something and it does not happen that is a better thing'
3- :'u dont contemplate something and it happens that is probably the best thing'
Saturday, February 11, 2006
the 11th of Feb!
life as it is comes 2 a halt at times there r those moments which make ur day special. even as 1 tries 2 grapple with what is out of the realm of the ordinary n wonder how those few simple moments of life tend 2 make a special day cherished forever or another ordinary fuckin day seem entrenched in the golden book of memoirs for eternity 2 be cherished !
"to say what u feel n be able to feel what u say"!!!!!!!!!!
"to say what u feel n be able to feel what u say"!!!!!!!!!!
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